We are just now at two weeks and I'm already stressing about going back to work and what to do about childcare. I wish that wasn't my personality.
I want to enjoy these days when she little and cuddly and dependent on me. Before she grows up and becomes her own person, no longer thinking she needs me. I wish Neal could be home from work more to enjoy them too, because it really is truly wonderful to see him cuddle and snooze with her or play with her during tummy time!
I love that only moments after putting her in our Boba carrier, she's fast asleep and will stay that way the entire time I walk around with her. I love watching Neal with her, the two of them falling asleep together is my favorite. I love the way she grasps my finger when we feed. I love the way she throws her arms out and eyes get big when she's startled or surprised by something. I love the warmth of her baby soft skin against me. She's simply the most special little girl to me.
How Old: 2 Weeks
Medical Updates: No official Dr. updates, next appointment isn't until later in October, but she seems to be getting bigger and stronger daily. She can lift her head briefly as well as bang it strongly against Neal's chest if he's holding her and she's ready to eat!
Sleep: We had 2 difficult sleep nights this past week. One of them, I think she could tell I was anxious. We had a rough afternoon, one to which Neal came home to both of us crying, and sleep was difficult that night. She's been making more and more noises while she sleeps, so it's keeping me up or waking me up. Then I check on her, and she's still eyes closed, sleeping, just dreaming and wiggling some. If her noises don't wake me, a nice puddle milk or extremely full breasts does! The more noises she makes, the fuller I get!
Clothing/Diapers: She's still in her newborn sizes. They are a tiny bit more fitting this week, but all work well. We started her on cloth diapers yesterday. That will be a bit of an adjustment as we realized we can't keep them on as long as disposable. So we are figuring that out and have had some great tips and suggestions from other moms on Facebook and Instagram.
Postpartum: 2 Weeks
Weight: Down 21.9 That's 7.7 lbs above my pre-pregnancy weight.
Waist: Down 7.5 inches. 4.5 to go (ish) before I'm back to pre-pregnancy.
Belly: The linea nigra will likely stay around for a while longer...oh joy! Neal and I compared abdominal areas so I could feel what a non separated abdomen was like...and yea, I def have about 2 fingers worth of separation, thus possible diastis recti. It's not something my Dr. seemed concerned about, so I'm just going to avoid straining my abs as much as possible and figure out ways to work around this and bring the separation closer.
Best moment this week: Anytime Braelyn cuddles with Neal or myself and falls to sleep. Especially in her Boba as I walk her and she makes sweet cooing noises!!!
Hardest Moment this Week: Baby blues. One evening, as mentioned above, Neal came home to both of us crying. It only took him about 5 min to calm her down and get her to sleep for the next few hours. Then that evening, she would wake up, change diaper, feed, fall asleep, but the moment I put her down, she was awake and crying. I hadn't realized Neal was leaving at 3am for work either so I was just all kinds of upset. The blues have come and gone a few times for me. Most days I'm really happy and content, there's just a little time period where they hit.
Braelyn feeding update: My nips are almost completely healed! I used olive oil, went around topless when possible, and just really watched how I would hold/feed her. Feeding is not nearly as uncomfortable.
Question of the week:
What helped you through the baby blues?